Got a Mem from Mikey!


By the way - My score is a great big 8!!!! Heh.
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Start at 50 and add or subtract points as stated for each statement that applies to you...

Above 50 means you are not so good in bed..and not so fun, below 50 means you are real fun and damn good in bed ;)~.

AFTER you're done... put your score in the comments.

Please put this posting on your own blog!!! Let's keep it going bloggers!!

Add 10 If you are a virgin

Subtract 5 If you have had sex before

Subtract 5 more If you have had sex with more then 5 people.

Add 5 If you have never had oral sex

Subtract 5 If you have had or performed oral sex.

Subtract 2 if you have had sex in a public place

Subtract 3 If you have done 69

Add 5 If you have never had an Orgasm

Add 5 If you cant name 3 types/brands of condoms

Subtract 2 If you have masturbated

Subtract 3 If you have fingered/ given a handjob to someone else.

Subtract 5 If you have used someone for sex (one night stand)

Add 5 If you have never seen someone of the opposite sex naked

Add 5 If you havent kissed more then 3 people (unrelated)

Add 3 if you havent been kissed in the past month

Add 2 if You have never masturbated

Add 5 If You have never seen or watched porn

Subtract 5 If you have made your own porn

Subtract 3 If you have participated in anal sex

Subtract 2 If you have used lube duiring sex

Add 5 If you cant remember your last perverted thought

Subtract 5 If you have used sex toys

Subtract 3 If you have had a perverted thought in the past hour

Subtract 2 If you have kissed someone of the same sex

I miss "M". I don't really spend much time with her anymore. Don't get me wrong - I see her usually everyday and she was just here last night for dinner and spent all day here cleaning while I was at work. She daycare's my kids - feeds them and then makes sure "T" takes good care of them all night.

But...


Still I really miss her and not seeing her much makes me worry that we will grow apart. I really wanted to spend the weekend with her doing something. I don't have "A" so I thought sleepover would be fun. But, she's going Camping with "K, A, M, T and the kids" I've been left out. It hurt a bit.. and then I realized I'm working 5 days a week now, what do I really expect. She's not waiting on hind foot to spend time with me - she has a life too.

I just wish I could .. haha, I realize I want my cake and to eat it too. LOL

Well, as long as we stay friends. I will not give my friends up anymore!

Yup, you read it here first. My first week of training is DONE, read that? D.O.N.E. Now I'm a full time (shh don't tell they hired me as part time actully) employee of Timmy's! I'm a Timmy Ho!

So far I just work drive-thru. Which is cool, its always where I wanted to work when I worked at McDonalds and they NEVER let anyone but the "cool" people work it. Rat Bastards! I hate McGag and Pukes.

Today I did half coffee bar 1/4 cash window and 1/4 taking orders. By far I prefer coffee bar, with "A" backing me up on coffee making. Hehe. Otherwise window is all good - but boring after a while.

Oh yeah, I love working there, I really enjoy the people I work with and I'm appriciated - well.. at least I feel appriciated right now. I'm sure it'll just turn into a 'job' eventully.

Explain your LiveJournal/MySpace name and its meaning. When you're done, tag as many people as there are letters in your name

Ok, so Goddess Corner - Basically its my little corner of the cyber-world that I have some say in. I am a Goddess, I worship a Goddess (well two actully - or if you want to get technical I worship many Gods and Goddess'.) I am Hellenic and worship those of the Greek Pantheon - YES, I mean Zues, Hera, Ares, Demeter, Perserephone, ect.. ect.. just to name a very few. This is where I'm aloud to be me and if you don't like it.. don't read. But I know you do! *grin* I love you's!

Ok here's where I tage people in my name. Hmm Brandi - that's six people. Just do it if you read me.. Oh yeah - and then link back K!

I've become another person. I don't know who that woman was that stayed in an unhappy marriage because she could see no other life, because she was so 'in love' with the man that was her everything. I don't see myself as a 'wannabe failure' - I have evolved.

I still love Fabian. The man I married - the Father of my Children. I shall carry that man with me in my soul for the rest of my life, in silence.

He is gone forever. Goodbye My Lover.

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
-James Blunt : Back To Bedlam

I left myself an empty vessel to be filled up with love and the excitment of life. I have my children and my faith and hopes and dreams to live for. I love every moment that I step on this journey of life. This positive leap of faith.

"E" my youngest, loooooves to poops! How can I describe the euphoria she gets from cutting a log? It's weird! That's what it is. Everywhere we go she just has to visit a bathroom. Now she's 3 3/4 yrs old. so she has a pretty small bladder still, so we make alot of stops. That's what having three children will do to you! LOL

Now peeing I have no problem - the kid pees like no tomorrow; but when she wants to take a smoke break on the toilet and leave a deposit behind, well it plain takes to long! I swear some days she's marking her territory.

At least she's trainable. She asks me first if she can go poop here. If we have 5 minutes I'll let her fill the order. At least she's never going to have any constipation problems. *grin*

I've not come here to BLOG in such a long time. So much has happened really, I don't think I could write about it all without missing tons of important *to me* stuff. So here's what I'll do. I'm going to - point form alot of stuff and go into detail about the other things that I feel like blogging about now.

- "M" and "K" moved in together. In "K's" house.
- "M" Hates it there. SERIOUSLY, it is NOT good.
- "K" is good a being an unreadable Asshole.
- I hate seeing "M" and "K" fight. It hurts me to see them unhappy.
- I am around too much. "M" keeps having me over because it... ok I'll explain this one and my feelings around it. *Look Out For Later Post*
- I graduated from Triangle! Hurrah Me!!
- I GOT A JOB at Tim Hortons! *Look Out For Later Post*
- Had a terrific Camp Fire at "M&K's"
- "A" freaked out at "M&K's" when "M" was Nanny-ing him and some nosy ass neighbours called the Police. *Look Out For Later Post*


So you see - so much had been happening that I haven't had time to write about hardly anything in here. I really DO want to make sure I blog at least twice a week *VERY LEAST, I want to do more actully* so from now on I'm going to make sure I come in at least once a day and try to post something funny or important that happened to me that day. Got it! Good.

I've posted off and on about where I am taking some job training, Triangle Resources. It's amazing here, so much positive energy crackles through the building that I would expect it to be laying it's own power lay lines!

The Facilitators here pick you up from feeling so low, so negitive. They are able to see you in a better place, a better emotinal strength; and show it to you. Evenutlly you hear "I'm so proud of you, you are amazing!" so many times you begin to really belive it! I believe it! I am an awesome, wonderful, deserving, woman! I deserve to be happy. I am becoming happy... well on the way.

Thank you Triangle.

My daughter "H" told me this today, something I have said toher many a time. I do the grocery shopping and often without the kids; apperantly the 'good' cereal isn't on sale when I buy our two weeks worth of groceries.

"H" pulled out the box of "No Name" Rice Crispies and frowned degectedly at the yellow box withou the three "Snap Crackle And Pop" characters. She looked at me, sighing heavily, "Well Mom, I know the rules. We Eat What We Have."

I Heart "H"!!!!!!

So I have a job interview at the Indian Friendship Center (IFC) downtown on Monday. I want this job - I NEED this job! This job is made for me, compleatly. I've slogged through so much shit, I've fought so many battles, I've prayed and sacraficed so much. I've been good. I've been happy. No, I'm not healed but will I ever really be better?

Administrative Asst. is the job title. I imagine its no more then Receptionist and glorifyed Girl Friday but I care not! It's 12 bucks an hour and I want it! Please oh please!

It would be my first positive major stepping stone. My first reward for getting on the right track. Oh, I know I deserve this. I don't give a shit what those idiots at the schoolboard say. They have no idea the hell that depression is. All they deal with is the Suburban HouseMom who cries into her Mocha Latte because her hubby won't buy her a Beemer!

This job would be the first step to get off the system. The first step in taking control of my life.

1. Get job
2. Get paycheck
3. Get into a Budget Program (strict)
4. OFF WELFARE!
5. Save Money
6. Get Licence
7. Take control of my life!

I am so prepared for this interview - I'm gonna nail it. I deserve this job. They have it styled down to six people now. I'm going to make sure I'm on the top of thier list!

Please, anyone have any positive thoughts or sendings they can put on thier way towards me... it's so greatly appriciated and needed right now.

My ego can't take anymore of a beating.

b.